Ok, so i am at work again...browsing the net and i nosed my way over to baileys page and then from hers, i went to her friend taytums. i had to stop myself from crying in front of the boys! i felt everything she was saying! she just found out that her and her husband are finally preggo! and i say "finally" because of her little journey to get there. When jimmy and i first got pregnant, we were NOT planning, so we are one of the "accident" couples that she spoke about. then we became pregnant with Jayla and were REALLY excited but took it for granted and became the "its so easy" couple. we found out we would be expecting baby #3 in september of last year. as soon as i found out, i told everyone..."no big deal." i went to dr's appointment on october 31, halloween, to hear the heartbeat and never heard it. two ultrasounds later and a trip to the hospital finalized the idea i did not want to accept. I was under the impression that i had two healthy pregnancies before, why would this one be any different??? It hurt. my cousin and his wife went through this on their first one and i didnt quite understand until it happened to me. I feel for the couples who never get a chance to experience childbirth and being pregnant and i am lucky enough to have done it twice already. yessss, i am one of those women who do NOT get sick and i love being preggo! i think having jimmy and the other two children in my life helped me a great deal with the miscarriage. i never had to experience the uncertainty of whether or not i could even get pregnant until now. We still want more kids but knowing the we have little control over what happens, it hurts and its scary. so sandee, sometimes i cry when i read your blog. you know that our due dates were within, what, 2 weeks? i love you and all my girls that are preggo or have kids or are trying... or not at all. i just wanted to say thanks to those who helped out and supported me and the fam. LOVE YOU! okay, thats enough of the mushy stuff, not so much me. thanks to taytum for reminding me just how precious our children are and the gift of life is!